La-la-la...Doh-pi Who?

:: New Blog ::

dopeymooke — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 05:15:43 +0000

http://www.dohpimuk.blogspot.com

This will be my new home…

Ciao~~

:: How do we know…? ::

dopeymooke — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 03:18:57 +0000

Recently i met up with an old good friend of mine. We had a long chat updating about each others lives and stuffs. Apparently, she’s getting married soon and i’m getting engaged soon, too…I am happy for her, truly happy for her for i know for a fact that she has been waiting for this day since she’s with her fiance.

Surprisingly, as we got into more details about her preparations and all, i realised something isn’t quite right from her facial expressions…she lacked the excitement look on her face which got me curious…so i asked her if there’s anything she would like to share with me…

" G, i am not sure if i want to get married with him anymore actually.."

I was shocked. She continued..

" Just recently i found out that our relationship was basically based on a LIE…all this time i believed that i was never a 3rd party in his previous relationship…he thought i would be glad that he dumped his ex because he wanted to be with me when i confronted him…maybe you would think the same way too…but i am not the least bit happy…why? because it just simply shows that he is CAPABLE of doing the same to me or to any other girls…"

I felt for her instantly. I used to be in a long term relationship as well where a 3rd party was involved (which is not me btw) and i have vowed never to be involved with another woman’s man or be a victim again….therefore, i truly understand how she feels…

I tried to talk some sense into her but all seems futile. She started sobbing and i just don’t know what to do to help her…

"You know G, actually all these years i have been wondering why does he still hold on to his ex’s stuff and being so defensive whenever the topic of his ex comes to picture…and fyi G, he has no problem talking bout his others exes except the last one before me…i confronted him about it, he explained but somehow somethings just didn’t add up but i was tired of pursuing for the truth and reluctantly accepted his explainations…i’ve been trying really hard to not think about it until recently when we decided to tie the knot…i decided to search for the truth myself and sad to say, i’ve actually dug up can full of worms and now i’m no longer sure about us…"

I was speechless. I didn’t know what to say. I just looked at her and said: "You know you were supposed to just let go of the past and most important thing is the future…at least you know that he loves you enough to want to marry you, right?"

"G, i know…i believe that he loves me…but i also believe that he still thinks of his ex…the ex that he speaks highly of…not in front of me but in his break up letter to her…"

My eyes widened…"Break up letter u said? And how the hell did you get hold of it?"

"Like i said i was in a mission to find the truth and answers for all my doubts…and i had to DIG HARD by all means possible…including invasion of his privacy…"

"G, it’s all made clear to me now and it all made sense now. All my doubts and insecurities were not just my active imagination. I know…i know…i shouldn’t dwell with the past instead concentrate on the future…but…how can i expect bright future when i am constantly bugged by all this "questions" and "doubts"?…and now, after finding out the truth and realising that he LIED to me since day one…HOW can i possibly be ok?"

Basically to cut the whole story short…

This dear friend of mine is now in doubts whether to go through with the wedding or not…she loves hes fiance but she doesn’t know if she can ever trust him again…also, she doesn’t know if she will be able to sincerely forgive and forget…

It’s sad to see her looking so lost….she used to be a very bubbly girl and she smiles and laugh alot…i kinda miss her old-self…i wish i can help but i believe nobody can really help her but herself…

It made me think:

how do we know that he/she is the one for us?

:: Lots of things happened::

dopeymooke — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 04:34:21 +0000

Hi peeps,

A lot of things had happened to me since the last post.

1. Was hopsitalised and had an emergency operation. Great way to usher in New Year!

2. Was in another major bust up with people that i care.

3. Deeply affected with what i saw and read…

4. Had an emotional breakdown.

5. Had to turn down NTV7 offer to appear in one of their shows.

6. Had a blast and a opportunity of a lifetime to work with Adibah Noor in her latest VC (although cikai-cikai punya part huhu…)

7. Last but least, I AM GETTING ENGAGED ON THE 23RD FEBRUARY 2008. Yay!

Sekian, terima kasih..uhu

:: MIssed Opportunity ::

dopeymooke — Fri, 14 Dec 2007 12:06:24 +0000

It was a bloody wonderful opportunity that i HAD to pass…not because i don’t want it but i just HAD to due to personal reasons (konon la..) I’m sad and dissappointed but i guess it’s probably gonna be blessing in disguise…..uhu

::Acceptance ::

dopeymooke — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 22:36:50 +0000

Acceptance…i guess that’s it.
I tried to accept it and move on but i can’t…
I hate this dejavu feeling of uncertainty, wondering whether this is it or isn’t, etc….gives me sleepless nights…
Most of the time i’m ok…but sometimes it just comes into my head without warning and starts to make damages…..FCUK!

Sometimes i just wish we never know each other…..

:: Am i or am i not? ::

dopeymooke — Sun, 21 Oct 2007 01:26:32 +0000

I have been facing some health complications lately….initially i was a bit concerned…which lead me to make an appointment with a specialist.

As the days nearing to the date of my appointment, i was on an emotional roller coaster…and kesian my VB for having to deal with my unwarranted behaviour hihi….I’m just glad that he was such a doll during those times of madness haha….although there were times i just felt like kicking his ass … oopppsss….

From being concerned…i was getting more like, paranoid over something that i was not even sure of…

Then, the day finally arrived to meet the specialist….

I was practically terrified of just the mere thought of what maybe be happening to me….

To cut the story short….

I dragged VB along with me to the clinic which is located in Old Town….

After getting myself registered at the counter….i waited anxiously, with VB sitting beside me for my name to be called out to enter the doctor’s room…

Five minutes passed…then ten minutes….Finally, "G*** K****C****"

I was greeted with a rather warm-motherly smile from Dr.Katherine…which thankfully made me feel more relaxed…

Then as soon as i sat down…the consultation began….

I started with explaining to her what was happening, history of illnesses and am sure you guys know the drill…

Anyways, she instructed to pass urine in a sample case for testing….i did…

Waited again….

Few minutes later was called in again…

Immediately after entering the room, i was asked to strip (in a way la hihi) and lie flat back on "the table"…Let’s just say that i was damn glad that she was a "SHE" haha….

Soon after lying down, she started performing series of check-ups on me….i kinda felt violated but i told myself this is routine and nothing to be ashamed of….

Fortunately, she started small-talking with me…at least it helped to get my mind off the uneasiness of being poked, grabbed, and groped by a total stranger and under full light hahaha….

Then, the nurse came in brought the results of my urine test…

What the good doctor had to say to me next was….ermmm…for me….TOTALLY UNEXPECTED….totally contradicted with what i had in mind….

Strangely, i felt sooo relieved and also ECSTATICALLY happy but at the same time, it was kinda scary thinking of the repercussions that may ensued…uhu

Well, although her sentence started with the word MAYBE but at least it gave me a light of hope again…a hope that i thought has gone forever…(dramatic sungguh hehehe..)

Nevertheless, it was still a maybe…couldn’t really confirm yet since i was still b******g. So, she asked me come back in another 2 weeks time until everything has cleared up. At the meantime, i was given loads of vitamins and folic acid tablets…the amount of tablets prescribed to me that day was nothing like i’ve ever been prescribed before in my whole life hahaha….macam mau kasi makan satu kampung…..

Anyways, all is good for now…..no expectations but someone’s getting jittery hahaha….

Ladeedaaa~~~

Till then………

:: hAPPY bOFDAY Si nOnOnG ::

dopeymooke — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 04:36:59 +0000

Wahh!! HAs been ages since the last time i set foot in a pub….until 29/9/07 at TSB Bangsar….how was it like for me after so long? errmmm…..let’s just say, i’ve "grown" to be an old and boring aunty hahaha….

The group was fun…the place was great…but its just me la…macam nda ngam tuning sudah sama sia all this club scenes…

Nonong was gorgeous…nampak tempias ninin lagi tuh ngeh ngeh ngeh..si Dora maintain hot mama hihihi..si esther (baru kenal)…she rocks…wewiitt…si Ollyn…sia tipah tertipu oleh dia…thought she was a Sabahan..check-check..anak jati KL…sporting abis…the guys…maintain cool and macho lor pa lagi haha…

Pictures? check out my friendster page jak la..malas mo uplod banyak-banyak…ladeedaaa~~

:: Finally… war is over ::

dopeymooke — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 13:46:18 +0000

Finally the 2nd civil war has ended! phew….

The Vikings and Gondorians are now at peace again…..new scars created but with time and much love, those scars will heal…..

The Gondorians’ decision to confront the Persians was not a great idea but it was obviously a good one. For, thanks to the confrontation with the Persians, the Gondorians felt more at ease. Although that, did not manage to completely quash all the doubts the Gondorians had towards the Vikings, but by confronting the so-called nemesis, the Persians, it surely helped the Gondorians to stand for something that they believe and voice out loud and clear what they really want from the Vikings.

The war this time around was pretty ugly. Ironically, something great actually resulted from this war. Something that someday will turn out to be beautiful…..

:: Pressured? ::

dopeymooke — Thu, 16 Aug 2007 13:00:09 +0000

First of all, i’ve just turned 28 years old couple of months ago…and being a woman of 28 years old and unmarried (although not single hihi…meaning taken ody la.. ), it is no surprise that my mom ( and i believe any moms…especially those traditional type of moms la) keeps bugging me about the Big M issue….besides the usual how-much-weight-u-lost-recently question…arrgghhh……

Well, weight issue is so old…i’m basically use to it and it’s so easy for me to just brush it aside haha….

As for the Big M thingy, that’s kinda new and it’s actually irritating…and a total mood killer…haih…imagine yourself missing your mom and you call her just to see how she’s doing and catch up with stuff that has been happening lately back home..all excited…when suddenly, the question that you dread most coming out from her mouth….KABOOMMMMM!! right smack in your face!!….say oso no use leh…haha…..and by the end of the day, you end up spending like half an hour trying so freaking hard to justify you actions and decisions and reasoning yourself to her….but still it feels like you are talking to a brick wall (or whatever wall you guys want la…hihi) I do understand her concerns but i have MY OWN concerns as well…

I just wish that she could just accept the fact when i told her (in fact, have been telling her….MANY times) that we are just not ready yet….not in near future….and these kinda things cannot be rushed…You see, first of all…i have just started working…and heck, i’m still using a piece of junk to travel called CAR…and with my meager wage….how can she expect me to start a freaking family….mau kasi makan pasir ka sama anak-anak? adeeiii…haha…(yada-yada-yada…) YES! I know many of you will say, it’s the man’s job to provide all the basic necessities to the family….but i don’t really believe in that…cos i believe that if the woman is also earning, means that she is also capable of being the care giver too…not only the man….thus, it’s her responsibility to provide as well…

Don’t get me wrong here…i’m not in any way crucifying my mom over the cyberspace..i love her to death….it’s just that, sometimes (if not most of the times…) i just wish that she would one day realise that i am no longer the little Gorisuk@iLis she once had total control of….and that she just have to learn to accept the fact that i want to live my life the way i want to and not the way she wants to or what other people a.k.a orang kampung a.k.a relatives expect me to…..

You guys just don’t have any idea how badly i want to say it to her directly….but, i just don’t have the heart to hurt her feelings…i can only give her hints and hope that she would understand and back off with the Big M thingy….and just be glad that her lil-fat-big-gorisuk@ilis has a boyfriend who loves her ( ehem….) and not being a lonely-fat-grumpy-droopy-gorisuk hahaha….

Okay…let me be frank….most part of me is just dying to get hitched…..why? hrrmmm….i’m not really sure why but probably one of the reason is because i love him? haha….or also because i’m terrified of being "over-riped" hahaha….ladeedaaa….whatever the reasons are…it doesn’t really matter…..

Having said that, there is also one teeny tiny part of me inside that is just not ready yet….and the reason for this one is CLEAR…but it’s only for me to know and for you guys to wonder…haha….Hints? hrrrmmm..let’s just say, unresolved issues haha…..

What i’m trying to say here is that, being pressured to get hitched by my mom just sucks big time….ladeedaa~~

:: Bye Bye Bali…Hello PJ ::

dopeymooke — Thu, 02 Aug 2007 09:21:07 +0000

Uhu……i miss Bali already..definitely will be going there again….ladeedaaa

Owh…to all of you who tried calling me and smsed me..sorry no reply etc….phone not in international roaming mode hehehehe……

Had fun…was there for 5 days 4 nights with Vincy and another friend, Ling….

It was a budget trip..nevertheless, the experience and fun-ness is definitely priceless….

There’s just sooo much to tell and write but i believe it’s best if i just serve you all with the pics…hihihihihi….

so, kalau nda keberatan click la sini: http://dohpimuk.multiply.com/photos